Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Wondering and Waiting



Author's Note:
Million of thoughts have been in my head lately. Some people are gaining, while others are losing my trust. In the writing piece I wanted to tell a story without actually saying it. I wanted to have the reader be able to get the message, but have it be harder to find. 



Wondering and Waiting

I keep wondering and waiting. Wondering if you really do you care about me. Waiting to see if you'll put the effort to come and spend time with me. When we talk, you reassure me thinking that everything is okay and you'll always be there for me. When in the end, you’re not. This leaves me depressed and hopeless at that point.

Make the commitment you're willing to put in for others, but why not me? You make it seem like you like me, when in reality you could care less. Think I'm stupid and too naïve to notice? Well you’re wrong. I can see right through your games, and then you tell me that it's okay and you’re sorry, but the saddest part is that I believe you. I keep responding. Just one message from you can put the biggest smile on my face from ear to ear.

In my head I keep telling myself to move on because he'll be leaving soon. While I'll still be here, but then in my heart I tell myself go for it. Don't live your life regretting everything and wishing you could have done something when you didn't. That'll be the worst mistake of all. I don't want to get caught though, in a bunch of lies. Don't want them to find out, and never put trust in me ever again, but is it worth the risk? That's the biggest question. Are you worth it?