Authors Note:

For the first time I wrote a more advanced stream of consciousness focusing on a certain thought. Mine hit close to heart because family is really important to me especially now that my brother went to college. 

Family, spending time with the ones we love.

Always there for me, always there to lend an ear and listen when I'm feeling blue, always there to match my mood, always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. Family is always there for me.

Family is so precious to me, especially now.  Now that one of the members is gone, and I only see him every so often. It's not the same anymore; one spot at the dinner table is now empty. Leaving me feel awkward that now I sit were he once did, but when I see him every month for a couple of days, I thought he would start to show some compassion now that he lives two hours from home. Though he doesn't show his love as much as I would like, it hides the pain. The pain of not seeing him and not sharing countless laughs with him. When we do hide the love it takes us away from reality on how we don't get to see him every day. The best part when he is home is having that warm feeling that everything is in place.

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Dear Jordan,

The family will never be the same anymore. I will never be able to see you every day like I have in the past. You will never drive me to practice having the radio blasted piercing my ears. We will never have trench ball games one on one, on the trampoline ever again. I will never have the daily reminder on how you hate sharing germs. I will never have my Tuesday and Friday nights of watching you play basketball even though the coach was a complete moron, which is why he is the assistant coach now. I will never have the school nights of watching Glee with you, and everyone else. I will never hear you make your impressions of Jersey Shore. It will never be the same without one piece of the puzzle. It's different when you’re not around; I love you with all my heart. I miss you dearly, have fun and go crazy, but still work hard in college. See you soon!

Love your Little Sister,

Katie

Author's Note:

In this stream of consciousness I wanted to use some repetition in the writing to make the reader really listen to certain words.

Usually in stream of consciousness if you bring a lot of emotion into the writing sometimes it relates to yourself. In this piece I brought tons of emotion, but it doesn't relate to me in anyway that I know of. When I finished writing and I read it all over, I felt that my voice sounded like I was in the perspective of a slave saying all of the emotions he/she went through to be free.

Train

Take me away. Let me embark on a new journey. I wish to be free and turn over a new leaf. I want to let the past simply drift away.

I jump on with only luggage and looking ahead to a fresh, new start. How I wish of that. To dream new dreams, and to breathe new air. To be anyone I wish to be. My past is gone and I won’t go back, I will never look back upon it ever again. The misery I went through, the tormenting I had to suffer. All because of my background. They say bumps, cuts, and bruises hurt, but go away. While words live on forever. To me, everything counts. I have a memory, and I always will remember what you put me through.

So as I climb aboard this long journey to a new and happier place I will remember. It's hard to forget, but it's harder to stay with the suffering. I will be a new person. I will be someone you never let me be. I will be the person I want to be and nothing less.

Even though I went through so much with you. I thank a very small part. Thanks for making me stronger, making my skin a little bit thicker, and making me a little bit wiser. Thanks for making me strive every single day. The goal was set and matched, that I am no longer your slave. I am me.